YouTube, please

I guess there is a reason why we have phrases like “a gift and a curse.” So today, for work, I needed to upload a video from home. Normally, this is supposed to be really simple. I login to YouTube and then drag and drop the video file.

Except, it turns out that there are some steps that I have been taking for granted. For security reasons, all of our accounts have two-step verification enabled. (Sidenote: This is generally a good idea, you should do it for safety.) The problem, however, is that today Google decided to not text me my verification code. Without that code, I can’t log in!

And I know that this is not my phone’s fault. In fact, I have actually received two codes today. The only problem is that the codes arrived about an hour after I requested them. Obviously, by the time the codes arrived, the login query had expired. Now I bet Google thinks someone is trying to hack into my account! I can guarantee that this is not the case.

This makes me very frustrated. Bad Google. Why are you making me frustrated. What have I ever done to you?

  • That aside…

I have improved my website a little more today. The about page is complete and it has a nice little toggleable menu. You can pick between my CV and my Portfolio! It was a fun little exercise with JavaScript and in particular JQuery.

Also, the index page now has a parallax image. I’ve also fixed a weird phantom-margin issue that had been plaguing me since day one.

Now I need to get better at design. The website looks good, but it’s not aesthetically pleasing. I need to figure that out. I’ll have to browse the web for some cool designs.

Anyways, here’s a list of things I’ve done:

  • Went to a really cool restaurant in downtown Montreal and had some really high-class gourmet food.
  • Updated my website so that it has actual, useful information in it.
  • Tried and failed to upload a video. Will try later today, early in the morning.
  • I played some guitar and recorded a new tune. It sounds very indie-like. However, I’m not very pleased with my recording quality. Still, it’s better than any other guitar recording I have done to date.

Next up!

  • Make the website look and feel good.
  • Start doing some actual tutoring on
  • Pick a new book to read.
  • Continue playing Persona 5.

I read Snow by Orhan Pamuk


It was inevitable, really. I had to read at least one book by Orhan Pamuk and I guess it had to be Snow. If I were to summarize this book by one sentence, it would be: “I feel personally attacked by this relatable content.”

And before I continue any further, I guess I should be the one to point out the weirdness of awkwardness of me writing these words in English as opposed to Turkish. I blame my audience and the limits of content creation.

I don’t know if you’ve ever thought about this, but the politico-psychological (thanks Foucault) spirit of Turkishness is a mess. It has a whole lot of confusing and contradicting aspects. And Snow highlights pretty much all of them.

Take for instance the Westernized/Europeanized Turk. This person is a liberal, who believes in the virtues of democracy and vox populi, yet they’re also a die-hard fan of secularism. But what happens when the vox populi wants to stick to its traditional roots and their religion, more so than the virtues of democracy? Or, to phrase it better, what if the virtues of democracy mean that the vox populi has the right and freedom to be religious?

I’ve struggled with reconciling the democratic “liberal” and the authoritarian secularist inside me for a relatively long time. Still, however, whenever I think I like one side better than the other, the realities of Turkey make me hesitate and put me back on the fence.

Going back to Snow, I guess my undecidedness was one of the reasons that made me like the book and the political portrait it portrays.

That being said, the men in this book made me realize/remember why I’ve decided to disown my masculinity, to some extent. Ka is an annoying man. He is entitled and just thinking about him kinda makes me frustrated.

Read Snow if you want to get to know a bit more about Turkey’s political Zeitgeist. It’s not the most accurate picture, but you’ll leave knowing more than you did before. And if you are left confused… Well, welcome to the club! None of us know what the hell is going on back there.

Featured image: I didn’t take this photo. Thanks Google.

A Day at the Movies

Ah! There is nothing quite like spending an entire Saturday in the dark and popcorn smelling auditoriums of a downtown blockbuster cinema. It’s mostly the popcorn smell that keeps people going back to those places, I think. That, and the fact that the movie industry vehemently opposes releasing their films digitally on day one, so that they can keep charging us (the movie-goers) more $$$ than what hiring a video on Google Play might cost.

  • I mean. You could also download the movie for free via some less than reputable means. But this blog does not condone such actions.

Anyway, today I watched two movies in a row, for a total of roughly 6.5 hours of screentime and I’m glad I did it. I can finally say that I have caught up with the trends and can stop worrying about spoilers on the Internet.

  • But what movies did you see?

Great question! Today I watched Blade Runner 2049 and It (2017); both of which were phenomenal.

Blade Runner 2049

Denis Villeneuve’s sequel to the original Blade Runner was basically great. Although, I think I should admit the fact that I do not remember the original that well. I remember watching it on an airplane, probably going back to Montreal from Istanbul, and finding it rather… boring. See, it is a really long movie, with glacial pacing. I am more a fan of the Philip K. Dick’s original work, Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep?. There, you can at least forgive the slow pacing since you at least have to do some reading, instead of watching Harrison Ford think.

Going back to 2049, I can say that this movie manages to hit all the tropes of the cyberpunk genre, without feeling too trope-y. By that, I mean that it does the thing right. You got your constant bad weather, grimy streets, neon lights, Japanese language, smog, some more bad weather – the list goes on. But none of it feels forced, even though the future that’s being depicted isn’t that far off into the future.

And also, Ryan Gosling is very cool and “authentic” in his role as K. If only he had been named after the next letter in the alphabet and then I’d be able to make Death Note jokes. Alas! One of my favourite scenes in this movie involves my boy Ryan and a piano. Coz he was in La La Land, right? So obviously, Blade Runner and La La Land are in the same expanded universe.

It (2017)

I didn’t see the original It and from what I’ve read on the Internet, I don’t really have to. While I am SURE Tim Curry is a great actor and his Pennywise is an important character in the history of movies, the Internet Consensus seems to argue that his Pennywise was rather too comedic. Alexander Skarsgard’s Pennywise, on the other hand, is rather terrifying and disconcerting.

Honestly, going into this movie, I thought it was going to be chock-full of jumpscares and other kinds of cheap frights. And while there were jumpscares aplenty, they were well placed and not that scary. In fact, I didn’t hear a whole lot of gasps or “yeargh”s in the theatre. I wonder if I’ve gotten desensitized to that kind of stuff over the years of not watching a whole lot of scary movies.

Also, I gotta say, I love watching coming-of-age stories like this one. For some reason, I was reminded of Life is Strange, which is one of the best video games I’ve played. I guess I’m feeling nostalgic about my own teenage years and kinda feel jealous about all those kids who got to grow up in small American towns.

But I got to grow up in Istanbul, so hah, joke’s on them.


Here’s a list of things I’ve done:

  • Watched two movies.
  • Wrote this blog post.
  • Ate some food.
  • Portfolio setting up is going smoothly. My github is starting to get populated. You can find it here.

Next up!

  • Start tutoring on I’ve been accepted as a tutor! So now I just gotta start responding to my students.

Hello World

Here I am, once again, creating myself a blog. Will I be able to keep it going this time? Who knows?

The purpose of this blog is clear! It is an outlet. This will be where I come to whenever I feel there is too much happening in my brain. Frankly, that’s not very often. Nevertheless, it never hurts to have extra storage, you know?

Speaking of storage, I have way too many external drives. Will I even be able to fill them all up one day?

Maybe I should keep this short, since I don’t feel like I have a lot to say. And the more you force yourself to write these kind of things the more they sound… forced.

Anyways, here’s a list of things I’ve done:

  • Finally set up my website.
  • Made my website mobile responsive. Took me much longer than I’d care to admit. I can be more confident to add “CSS3” on my CV now.
  • Took my first steps into the world of “tutoring.” We’ll see how that goes.
  • Scheduled a bunch of videos for the employer.
  • Uploaded a bunch of articles that I’m somewhat proud of to I don’t really know what’s the point, but I’m building a portfolio.

Next up!

  • Get my Github going. Once that’s done, link it to the website.
  • Then, put all the little utilities that I’ve made so far up there. Portfolio!